Tell me it's love
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“here we are, after you May.” I walked into the cafe Tadhg holding the door open for me. “hi Tadhg what can I do for you tonight mate.” it seemed like he came here often “just the usual times two please” we sat down at a table and waited for whatever had been ordered I played with the salt and pepper shaker that was sat in front of me “so do you come her often?” I stopped and looked him in his eyes them making me want to fall even more but that was something I knew I couldn't do, “just when I'm on late's at work or out with the boys like tonight. I like to come here and get a coffee and something to eat.” I felt weird nothing like I had ever felt before being with a guy. Our drinks came and so did our a food a bagel full of everything you want when you are a little bit drunk not that I liked admitting I was a little drunk. “this is going to be the best thing you've had whilst being drunk.” I looked at his cheeky grin as he spoke, “I'm not drunk just tipsy.” “say's the one who spilt her drink one me.” “I thought we'd agreed that was your fault.” “you got me.” he held his hands up in defeat. We'd only just met but we were already joking around with each other I had put this down to the amount of alcohol we had both consumed but never the less it felt nice being able to be at ease with someone who an hour ago was a stranger.
He made it so effortless for me to be myself nothing like the guy I had my last relationship with who was always controlling, I felt like this was the first time I was actually being myself in about three years. Something I never thought would have been possible. Maybe Anna was right maybe it was time for me to start having fun I found it hard to move on but what did I have to loose he had clearly moved on so why couldn't I why did it always have to feel like women couldn't move on maybe now it was time to change that it was finally time for me to start being able to be the person I was before I had my heart ripped from me before it was burnt and broken.
